Below is the video of the first part of memorial service. It started with the paddle salute. These are Shin's teammates from her breast cancer dragon boat team. She was really impressed and surprised by her teammates on her dragon boat team for being so brave, spunky and full of life. Several teammates are still battling advance cancer. Our thoughts are with them.
I was really happy with the quality of the video. Shin's friends Lynn Lee and James Leong who are documentary film makers shot and edited the video. Shin and I loved their movies (Homeless FC, Aki Ra's Boys, Passabe). They have a great knack for finding and unusual story and bringing it to life. Now they are working on a movie about an athlete from Africa who wants to be the first black African in the Tour de France. I think it comes out later this year. Think of it as Shin's parting advice, you got to check out their movies when you get a chance (http://www.lianain.blogspot.com/).
The first video clip: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HjxBhYsSBC0
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Memorial Service - Eulogy by Alicia
The overall service consisted of 1) the paddle salute and song from her dragon boat team, 2) The Eulogy from Tony, 3) Eulogy by Alicia, 3) A poem read by Ella Brady, Ciara Brady and Josie Raza, 4) a word for thanks from Ms Kwek, found of the Breast Cancer Foundation in Singapore, 5) Michelle reading her final letter to Shin and reading Shin's letter to everyone, 6) the photo slideshow, 7) the balloon release.
Below is the Eulogy by Alicia:
Creating a Better World
Attribute to Shin Na by Alicia Yi
I remember the day I met Shin. Dennis and I were at some dot.com party in year 2000. Dennis and I got separated at the party and when he finally found me at the end of the night, he was all so excited about meeting this spunky Korean woman who he talked with all night…named Shin.
Since I am Korean, Dennis often gets excited about meeting other Koreans thinking he is doing me a favor in rounding up all the Koreans in Singapore on my behalf. But I thought with a name like Shin, I was pretty sure I wasn’t going to like her. I thought she would be old fashioned, conservative and boring.
Of course, when I finally met her later that night, I immediately changed my mind. She was nothing of the sort. I knew right away she was someone very special who I wanted to befriend. We have been the closest of friends ever since….a friendship that is bigger than life itself.
What I Admired the Most
Many of you already know from her blog that she is smart, articulate, witty, spunky, passionate, funny and incredibly fun-loving person. She had strong views on how we can make this world a better place.
She was passionate about educating everyone around her on how we can all make a difference. She never gave up or accepted anything she thought could be done better – no matter how big or small the issue. She was an activist – always trying to help those who are in need.
There wasn’t anything I could not talk to Shin about…openly and honestly. She never sulked or complained about her cancer. There was nothing too sacred, too personal or too painful for her to deal with, that we couldn’t talk about. She was always matter-of-fact about her reality of living with cancer, but it was always with her bright smile, optimism and hope.
I thought about qualities that I admired the most in Shin:
ß I will never forget how much she loved Tony, Josie and Toby.
ß I will never forget how wonderfully happy and cheerful she was before and during her battle with cancer
ß I will never forget all the big and small ways she celebrated human endeavors. It could be…helping save a little boy with leukemia…to cheering on a friend running a marathon to lose his weight.
ß While she would hate to be labeled in anyway, she was a humanist and she lived to the fullest.
ß I will miss her optimism. I will miss her big wide smiles. I will miss talking to her about anything and everything under the Sun.
ß She appreciated and relished the simplest things in life such as:
- a day on the beach with her kids and Tony making sandcastles,
- an evening stroll after dinner singing Louis Armstrong’s “It’s a Wonderful World”
- making up bed time stories for Toby and Josie that taught them life values
- she was always so thankful − tickled by little things Josie or Toby would do…in any given day.
ß She never stopped correcting my grammar. She never stopped educating people about cancer and the environment. She never stopped helping anyone who may be in need. She never stopped hoping for a better world. She never stopped loving. She never stopped living until her last breath.
ß She often said “I want to live until I die”…and that she did. One of the last words she said to me and Michelle were, “it’s too hard….it’s too hard to teach you guys grammar!” She was correcting our grammar to her last breath. She was making witty comments to make light of the sadness we were facing.
ß She taught me how to live. She taught me what’s really important in life. She taught me how to appreciate every aspect of life and relish every second of it.
Closing
Shin has touched so many people in so many ways. All of you here today and all those who couldn’t be here who wanted to be here from all over the world is a testament to her reach and impact she had with her short, but brilliant, life on earth.
And thru her friendship, I have met so many amazing people. Many who are here today who have and will change me in subtle and profound ways.
One of the amazing people I have come to love and admire is Tony. Your thoughtfulness and quiet strength goes beyond words. We all love you very much and I want you to know we are here for you and the kids.
I can see the cycle of love Shin has started…and I can feel it growing and multiplying in this very room. I know this would be Shin’s wish and she would be very, very happy to see all of us start loving and caring for one another to create a better world.
Thank you, Shin. I love you.
Below is the Eulogy by Alicia:
Creating a Better World
Attribute to Shin Na by Alicia Yi
I remember the day I met Shin. Dennis and I were at some dot.com party in year 2000. Dennis and I got separated at the party and when he finally found me at the end of the night, he was all so excited about meeting this spunky Korean woman who he talked with all night…named Shin.
Since I am Korean, Dennis often gets excited about meeting other Koreans thinking he is doing me a favor in rounding up all the Koreans in Singapore on my behalf. But I thought with a name like Shin, I was pretty sure I wasn’t going to like her. I thought she would be old fashioned, conservative and boring.
Of course, when I finally met her later that night, I immediately changed my mind. She was nothing of the sort. I knew right away she was someone very special who I wanted to befriend. We have been the closest of friends ever since….a friendship that is bigger than life itself.
What I Admired the Most
Many of you already know from her blog that she is smart, articulate, witty, spunky, passionate, funny and incredibly fun-loving person. She had strong views on how we can make this world a better place.
She was passionate about educating everyone around her on how we can all make a difference. She never gave up or accepted anything she thought could be done better – no matter how big or small the issue. She was an activist – always trying to help those who are in need.
There wasn’t anything I could not talk to Shin about…openly and honestly. She never sulked or complained about her cancer. There was nothing too sacred, too personal or too painful for her to deal with, that we couldn’t talk about. She was always matter-of-fact about her reality of living with cancer, but it was always with her bright smile, optimism and hope.
I thought about qualities that I admired the most in Shin:
ß I will never forget how much she loved Tony, Josie and Toby.
ß I will never forget how wonderfully happy and cheerful she was before and during her battle with cancer
ß I will never forget all the big and small ways she celebrated human endeavors. It could be…helping save a little boy with leukemia…to cheering on a friend running a marathon to lose his weight.
ß While she would hate to be labeled in anyway, she was a humanist and she lived to the fullest.
ß I will miss her optimism. I will miss her big wide smiles. I will miss talking to her about anything and everything under the Sun.
ß She appreciated and relished the simplest things in life such as:
- a day on the beach with her kids and Tony making sandcastles,
- an evening stroll after dinner singing Louis Armstrong’s “It’s a Wonderful World”
- making up bed time stories for Toby and Josie that taught them life values
- she was always so thankful − tickled by little things Josie or Toby would do…in any given day.
ß She never stopped correcting my grammar. She never stopped educating people about cancer and the environment. She never stopped helping anyone who may be in need. She never stopped hoping for a better world. She never stopped loving. She never stopped living until her last breath.
ß She often said “I want to live until I die”…and that she did. One of the last words she said to me and Michelle were, “it’s too hard….it’s too hard to teach you guys grammar!” She was correcting our grammar to her last breath. She was making witty comments to make light of the sadness we were facing.
ß She taught me how to live. She taught me what’s really important in life. She taught me how to appreciate every aspect of life and relish every second of it.
Closing
Shin has touched so many people in so many ways. All of you here today and all those who couldn’t be here who wanted to be here from all over the world is a testament to her reach and impact she had with her short, but brilliant, life on earth.
And thru her friendship, I have met so many amazing people. Many who are here today who have and will change me in subtle and profound ways.
One of the amazing people I have come to love and admire is Tony. Your thoughtfulness and quiet strength goes beyond words. We all love you very much and I want you to know we are here for you and the kids.
I can see the cycle of love Shin has started…and I can feel it growing and multiplying in this very room. I know this would be Shin’s wish and she would be very, very happy to see all of us start loving and caring for one another to create a better world.
Thank you, Shin. I love you.
Memorial Service - Eulogy by Tony
The overall service consisted of 1) the paddle salute and song from her dragon boat team, 2) The Eulogy from Tony, 3) Eulogy by Alicia, 3) A poem read by Ella Brady, Ciara Brady and Josie Raza, 4) a word for thanks from Ms Kwek, found of the Breast Cancer Foundation in Singapore, 5) Michelle reading her final letter to Shin and reading Shin's letter to everyone, 6) the photo slideshow, 7) the balloon release.
Below is the Eulogy from Tony:
Eulogy for Shin
By Tony Raza, her husband
The English Language
Anyone who knows Shin, knows this is a sad day for the English language. Shin was truly extraordinary when it came to her proficiency with language, and anyone who knew her would be reminded of this repeatedly.
I would guess she would be in some unique upper percentile when it came to grammar ability. She would read the New York Times or Wall Street Journal and highlight mistake after mistake and complain that nobody cares about grammar anymore. My theory is that if you can find more grammar mistakes than the editor of the NYT that should make Shin one of the top .001%. Which when you combine with her type A personality made for an interesting combination. Shin would walk around town with a pen marker and correct sign after sign. Misspelled word here, improper use of “its” – as an abbreviation for “it is” it needs need an apostrophe, but in the possessive form it does not, confusion of lie and lay since everyone should remember that the past tense of one verb is the same as the present tense as the other. She would walk into a store and demand of the befuddled clerk that they take down their front sign that had a mistake. It drove me crazy at the time, … but yes, I miss it already.
The Blog
I think many people here today may be here because of the blog. To me its only a small part of Shin, but it offers a good window into the type of person shin was, so let me talk a bit about the blog.
I had originally suggested to Shin to start a blog so that she can keep family a friends updated on her condition. It was time consuming to make 20 phone calls after every development. Also, we had started reading other blogs about people with cancer and we found it very useful to build our understanding of how the disease could progress and how it affected people. I think if it were me, that was all the blog would have been, a way to update family and some more informational data points for other cancer patients.
But Shin being Shin, she turned it into something more. At some points, She was getting thousands of hits a day and was noted by various newspapers and television reports. Shin would walk through malls or hospitals and people would come up to her and say “you are the woman with the blog”. One time a group of teenagers recognized her at borders and gathered their friends. They said they were Christian and wanted to pray for her. Shin was charmed and agreed. It was a funny scene with 10 or so teenagers kneeling and praying around Shin in borders while she smiled and giggled.
I’ve thought a lot about what was it that made Shin and her blog catch on the way it did. Her gift for words was obviously a strength for her. Her feisty spirit made her posts more interesting to read. Pictures of cute kids probably helped. And there was a lot of sharing of personal details and feelings that I think was appreciated.
But I’ve also long thought that Shin was one of the unique individuals described in the book the Tipping Point. In the book Malcom Gladwell says “The success of any kind of social epidemic is heavily dependent on the involvement of people with a particular and rare set of social skills." He describes the different type of people that are needed to make change and the most important are rarest type is what he calls a “connector”. Connectors are the people who "link us up with the world ... people with a special gift for bringing the world together." They are, "a handful of people with a truly extraordinary knack for making friends and acquaintances". I thought about Shin in that light ever since I read the book years ago, but watching the blog catch on confirmed it to me. I was lucky to have been with such a person.
And of course, the other really special thing about the blog was the connection it made to so many people. Shin and I would read the emails and comments of stories of similar challenges and loss, words of encouragement or admiration and Shin and I would lie in bed and get choked up reading them. I have similarly been reading the comments on the blog that past few days, and I’m very very touched. The kind words, the memories of shin, the sharing of similar experiences are all appreciated. Thanks to you all.
Preparing the kids
One night in the past couple of weeks when Shin was getting more tired, I told her that I had just gone to the check on Josie and Toby who were sleeping in their room. I told her they were so cute and I was so lucky to have the treasure She has left me. She held up two fingers and said “two treasures”.
Shin wanted to be honest with the children and she wanted them to be prepared. When Josie was only 2, Shin told Josie that Shin had breast cancer and that some people die of it, but that the doctors were helping Shin do everything possible to get better. Josie got used to seeing their mother in various stages of treatment, with or without hair, and in or out of bed. And then 2-3 weeks ago we started explaining that the doctors don’t think they can cure the cancer any more and that Mommy could die and in might be soon. I explained that I will take care of them and their grandmother will be here more to take care of them. Josie asked what if something happened to me, and I explained that there was nana and my brothers family, Shin’s brothers family, and friends like Michelle, Deb and Alicia that love and would take care of them too. Surprisingly, it was Toby who asked what if something happened to all the grownups. To which I said well, then I guess the children will be able to eat chocolate and watch movies all day without grownups to boss them around. Which seemed to get the kids positively excited about the idea and they spend the rest of the day imagining how great it could be.
A few days before Shin passed away, Josie, Toby and I talked about what we would miss the most. Josie said she would miss her love, I said I would miss her smile and Toby said all of her. Josie said it was ok because she could always find Shin’s love in her heart, and I could find her smile in my heart, and then Toby piped up “yeah and I can find all of her in my heart”.
To the Kids in the room
We have a fair number of kids in the room. Thanks for being good friends to Josie and Toby. I want to say some thing directly you kids here. Sometimes adults have saying that are clever but a little hard to understand. Lets see who can understand these sayings: ready?
- Ok first one – “It not the years in your life, but the life in you years” – That sound confusing right? To Josie, it means is that your mom may not have lived to be very old, but she sure was happy a lot and helped others a lot with the years she did have. Some people live much longer, but never do as much and love as much as your mom did.
- Here is another: “Don’t cry because she is gone, smile because she was here”. Its going to be hard for us because we are going to miss her so much. But we should remember that it was such a joy to have when we did and really aren’t we lucky for that.
- A friend wrote: “Shin was a small women who made a big impact, she was a force to be reckoned with” - Right, you don’t have to be big to do big things. Mommy was a small person but she made a big impact on a lot of people. Look at how many people are here now.
- Last one: “When death smiles at us; all a man can do is smile back” – That one is about being brave like your mom. When you face scary things in your lives, think of your mom who faced something scary like cancer with a smile.
Shin’s heart
Shin’s English language skills and the blog are interesting points about Shin, but I was really just warming up to trying to say something about what it was that really made Shin special. The was something special about the way Shin was so full of life.
Josie and Toby would know what I’m talking about right?. Josie, do you remember when mommy would come home and squeal “Josie!” or “Toby!” with the biggest smile in the world. Didn’t she just make the whole room fill up with happiness. Its not quite the same as when Dad comes home, right? I say hi josie!, you say hi dad. That is something we will miss.
I recall when I was first falling in love with Shin I had this epiphany about why I was falling so deeply for Shin so quickly. I felt her love and affection would light up a room and make me feel like I’m the only person in the world. I started to tell her how I felt and she said, “yeah that what all my boyfriends have told me”. I actually felt a bit deflated at the time, but I kind of look back at if fondly now thinking about her string of boyfriends that were as spellbound as I was. I guess there is part of it that is true to everyone in love, but trust me, you can only imagine the force that emanates from Shin’s love. I think friends feel it too, and that’s why she has so many strong friendships.
Shin probably would have wanted me to talk more about causes Shin worked for, environment, recycling, saving energy, cancer awareness, kids in need. As many of you would know she would hand out pamphlets on breast cancer awareness to everyone she meets. She saved her head for the children’s cancer foundation only a month after it had grown back after chemotherapy, raising and amazing $20k in the process. She should be proud of her accomplishments, but personally I think it all really starts with that bundle of loving energy the radiates from her.
Good friends
I’ve found there are some benefits to dieing relatively young. I’m comforted to think Shin went out as well as one can. First the nature of cancer lets you prepare. Shin had 3 years since her initial diagnosis and a little of a year since her recurrence to set thing in order. There will always be more that one can think of doing , but Shin prepared well and I think helped put her at ease that her family would be ok.
And being young is helpful when you have young and capable friends to help. Which brings me to friends like Michelle and Alicia. Michelle has been an amazing friend to Shin, taking on the role of being her cancer buddy, which involves organizing an overwhelming about of information, tests, scans and research, and holding her hand during treatment. Michelle and Alicia were in our home 24 hours a day during the final week as we took shifts in caring for her. I was very comforted knowing that Shin had the luxury of being cared by loved ones at home. The hospice doctors and nurses from Assisi hospice were wonderful. And I am so happy that Shin in her death was at peace with setting things in order, and surrounded by an abundance of love that made her parting as comfortable as possible.
Shin’s father wrote in an email to Michelle and Alicia that he was so thankful to them and he thought they were truly angels. Our friend Rahul wrote to Michelle that she was an angel sent from a place Shin says doesn’t exist.
And to the kids in the room, when you want to learn what it means to be a true friend, think of the example of Michelle and Alicia.
Conclusion
On my very first date with Shin …. Not really a date, a lunch. She was a tv producer at CNBC and I came on her program to talk about stocks, and through that we met and agreed to go out to lunch. She told me then that she didn’t want to get married and didn’t want to have kids, and told me emphatically she could never be a stay at home mother. She fancied herself a smart world traveler that was going to live a lot of what this world has to offer and do something good for it. The people she admired were her friends like Kate Webb, the highly regarded, brave, no-nonsense war correspondent, who passed last year. Its ironic really, because, as I write her Eulogy, what it all boils down to for me is that she was a wonderful mother and wife, and ironically, I truly think that is how she would want to be remembered.
In the end, I think Shin was comfortable with her allotment of life. Before kids we talked once that if the plane we were on went down, we’d be ok with that. We’ve traveled the world, we’ve studied at great universities, we had interesting work, and we’ve experienced deep love and various worldly pleasures. We’d prefer more, but if that was all we got, we would have to admit that our lives were among the most fulfilling in the history of the planet. Children changed that a bit, as our hearts become completely engrossed in making sure they were taken care of. Children made it harder to let go. But with the time we had to prepare, I think Shin was finally confident that everything would be taken care of.
Its my promise to you Shin, I’ll take good care of Josie and Toby. You don’t have to worry about a thing. You can rest in peace. Thanks for making us so proud of you. And you will always still be alive in our hearts.
Below is the Eulogy from Tony:
Eulogy for Shin
By Tony Raza, her husband
The English Language
Anyone who knows Shin, knows this is a sad day for the English language. Shin was truly extraordinary when it came to her proficiency with language, and anyone who knew her would be reminded of this repeatedly.
I would guess she would be in some unique upper percentile when it came to grammar ability. She would read the New York Times or Wall Street Journal and highlight mistake after mistake and complain that nobody cares about grammar anymore. My theory is that if you can find more grammar mistakes than the editor of the NYT that should make Shin one of the top .001%. Which when you combine with her type A personality made for an interesting combination. Shin would walk around town with a pen marker and correct sign after sign. Misspelled word here, improper use of “its” – as an abbreviation for “it is” it needs need an apostrophe, but in the possessive form it does not, confusion of lie and lay since everyone should remember that the past tense of one verb is the same as the present tense as the other. She would walk into a store and demand of the befuddled clerk that they take down their front sign that had a mistake. It drove me crazy at the time, … but yes, I miss it already.
The Blog
I think many people here today may be here because of the blog. To me its only a small part of Shin, but it offers a good window into the type of person shin was, so let me talk a bit about the blog.
I had originally suggested to Shin to start a blog so that she can keep family a friends updated on her condition. It was time consuming to make 20 phone calls after every development. Also, we had started reading other blogs about people with cancer and we found it very useful to build our understanding of how the disease could progress and how it affected people. I think if it were me, that was all the blog would have been, a way to update family and some more informational data points for other cancer patients.
But Shin being Shin, she turned it into something more. At some points, She was getting thousands of hits a day and was noted by various newspapers and television reports. Shin would walk through malls or hospitals and people would come up to her and say “you are the woman with the blog”. One time a group of teenagers recognized her at borders and gathered their friends. They said they were Christian and wanted to pray for her. Shin was charmed and agreed. It was a funny scene with 10 or so teenagers kneeling and praying around Shin in borders while she smiled and giggled.
I’ve thought a lot about what was it that made Shin and her blog catch on the way it did. Her gift for words was obviously a strength for her. Her feisty spirit made her posts more interesting to read. Pictures of cute kids probably helped. And there was a lot of sharing of personal details and feelings that I think was appreciated.
But I’ve also long thought that Shin was one of the unique individuals described in the book the Tipping Point. In the book Malcom Gladwell says “The success of any kind of social epidemic is heavily dependent on the involvement of people with a particular and rare set of social skills." He describes the different type of people that are needed to make change and the most important are rarest type is what he calls a “connector”. Connectors are the people who "link us up with the world ... people with a special gift for bringing the world together." They are, "a handful of people with a truly extraordinary knack for making friends and acquaintances". I thought about Shin in that light ever since I read the book years ago, but watching the blog catch on confirmed it to me. I was lucky to have been with such a person.
And of course, the other really special thing about the blog was the connection it made to so many people. Shin and I would read the emails and comments of stories of similar challenges and loss, words of encouragement or admiration and Shin and I would lie in bed and get choked up reading them. I have similarly been reading the comments on the blog that past few days, and I’m very very touched. The kind words, the memories of shin, the sharing of similar experiences are all appreciated. Thanks to you all.
Preparing the kids
One night in the past couple of weeks when Shin was getting more tired, I told her that I had just gone to the check on Josie and Toby who were sleeping in their room. I told her they were so cute and I was so lucky to have the treasure She has left me. She held up two fingers and said “two treasures”.
Shin wanted to be honest with the children and she wanted them to be prepared. When Josie was only 2, Shin told Josie that Shin had breast cancer and that some people die of it, but that the doctors were helping Shin do everything possible to get better. Josie got used to seeing their mother in various stages of treatment, with or without hair, and in or out of bed. And then 2-3 weeks ago we started explaining that the doctors don’t think they can cure the cancer any more and that Mommy could die and in might be soon. I explained that I will take care of them and their grandmother will be here more to take care of them. Josie asked what if something happened to me, and I explained that there was nana and my brothers family, Shin’s brothers family, and friends like Michelle, Deb and Alicia that love and would take care of them too. Surprisingly, it was Toby who asked what if something happened to all the grownups. To which I said well, then I guess the children will be able to eat chocolate and watch movies all day without grownups to boss them around. Which seemed to get the kids positively excited about the idea and they spend the rest of the day imagining how great it could be.
A few days before Shin passed away, Josie, Toby and I talked about what we would miss the most. Josie said she would miss her love, I said I would miss her smile and Toby said all of her. Josie said it was ok because she could always find Shin’s love in her heart, and I could find her smile in my heart, and then Toby piped up “yeah and I can find all of her in my heart”.
To the Kids in the room
We have a fair number of kids in the room. Thanks for being good friends to Josie and Toby. I want to say some thing directly you kids here. Sometimes adults have saying that are clever but a little hard to understand. Lets see who can understand these sayings: ready?
- Ok first one – “It not the years in your life, but the life in you years” – That sound confusing right? To Josie, it means is that your mom may not have lived to be very old, but she sure was happy a lot and helped others a lot with the years she did have. Some people live much longer, but never do as much and love as much as your mom did.
- Here is another: “Don’t cry because she is gone, smile because she was here”. Its going to be hard for us because we are going to miss her so much. But we should remember that it was such a joy to have when we did and really aren’t we lucky for that.
- A friend wrote: “Shin was a small women who made a big impact, she was a force to be reckoned with” - Right, you don’t have to be big to do big things. Mommy was a small person but she made a big impact on a lot of people. Look at how many people are here now.
- Last one: “When death smiles at us; all a man can do is smile back” – That one is about being brave like your mom. When you face scary things in your lives, think of your mom who faced something scary like cancer with a smile.
Shin’s heart
Shin’s English language skills and the blog are interesting points about Shin, but I was really just warming up to trying to say something about what it was that really made Shin special. The was something special about the way Shin was so full of life.
Josie and Toby would know what I’m talking about right?. Josie, do you remember when mommy would come home and squeal “Josie!” or “Toby!” with the biggest smile in the world. Didn’t she just make the whole room fill up with happiness. Its not quite the same as when Dad comes home, right? I say hi josie!, you say hi dad. That is something we will miss.
I recall when I was first falling in love with Shin I had this epiphany about why I was falling so deeply for Shin so quickly. I felt her love and affection would light up a room and make me feel like I’m the only person in the world. I started to tell her how I felt and she said, “yeah that what all my boyfriends have told me”. I actually felt a bit deflated at the time, but I kind of look back at if fondly now thinking about her string of boyfriends that were as spellbound as I was. I guess there is part of it that is true to everyone in love, but trust me, you can only imagine the force that emanates from Shin’s love. I think friends feel it too, and that’s why she has so many strong friendships.
Shin probably would have wanted me to talk more about causes Shin worked for, environment, recycling, saving energy, cancer awareness, kids in need. As many of you would know she would hand out pamphlets on breast cancer awareness to everyone she meets. She saved her head for the children’s cancer foundation only a month after it had grown back after chemotherapy, raising and amazing $20k in the process. She should be proud of her accomplishments, but personally I think it all really starts with that bundle of loving energy the radiates from her.
Good friends
I’ve found there are some benefits to dieing relatively young. I’m comforted to think Shin went out as well as one can. First the nature of cancer lets you prepare. Shin had 3 years since her initial diagnosis and a little of a year since her recurrence to set thing in order. There will always be more that one can think of doing , but Shin prepared well and I think helped put her at ease that her family would be ok.
And being young is helpful when you have young and capable friends to help. Which brings me to friends like Michelle and Alicia. Michelle has been an amazing friend to Shin, taking on the role of being her cancer buddy, which involves organizing an overwhelming about of information, tests, scans and research, and holding her hand during treatment. Michelle and Alicia were in our home 24 hours a day during the final week as we took shifts in caring for her. I was very comforted knowing that Shin had the luxury of being cared by loved ones at home. The hospice doctors and nurses from Assisi hospice were wonderful. And I am so happy that Shin in her death was at peace with setting things in order, and surrounded by an abundance of love that made her parting as comfortable as possible.
Shin’s father wrote in an email to Michelle and Alicia that he was so thankful to them and he thought they were truly angels. Our friend Rahul wrote to Michelle that she was an angel sent from a place Shin says doesn’t exist.
And to the kids in the room, when you want to learn what it means to be a true friend, think of the example of Michelle and Alicia.
Conclusion
On my very first date with Shin …. Not really a date, a lunch. She was a tv producer at CNBC and I came on her program to talk about stocks, and through that we met and agreed to go out to lunch. She told me then that she didn’t want to get married and didn’t want to have kids, and told me emphatically she could never be a stay at home mother. She fancied herself a smart world traveler that was going to live a lot of what this world has to offer and do something good for it. The people she admired were her friends like Kate Webb, the highly regarded, brave, no-nonsense war correspondent, who passed last year. Its ironic really, because, as I write her Eulogy, what it all boils down to for me is that she was a wonderful mother and wife, and ironically, I truly think that is how she would want to be remembered.
In the end, I think Shin was comfortable with her allotment of life. Before kids we talked once that if the plane we were on went down, we’d be ok with that. We’ve traveled the world, we’ve studied at great universities, we had interesting work, and we’ve experienced deep love and various worldly pleasures. We’d prefer more, but if that was all we got, we would have to admit that our lives were among the most fulfilling in the history of the planet. Children changed that a bit, as our hearts become completely engrossed in making sure they were taken care of. Children made it harder to let go. But with the time we had to prepare, I think Shin was finally confident that everything would be taken care of.
Its my promise to you Shin, I’ll take good care of Josie and Toby. You don’t have to worry about a thing. You can rest in peace. Thanks for making us so proud of you. And you will always still be alive in our hearts.
Monday, February 2, 2009
More Links
Thanks to everyone who keep sending me links. Here is another to the Chinese Language paper.
Tony
http://www.omy.sg/News/Local%2BNews/Story/OMYStory200902011815-38435.html
Tony
http://www.omy.sg/News/Local%2BNews/Story/OMYStory200902011815-38435.html
Memorial Service - Director's Cut
Attached, are a couple of video clips that we had prepared for the memorial service, but had decided not to include as part of the service.
There is a clip of Shin being silly and hamming it up for the camera as she danced in a friend's pair of $2,000 shoes. The second clip is from sometime in 2006 when she sang Louis Armstrong's, "What a Wonderfull World", when out to dinner with some friends (she readily admitted she was quite tone deaf, but her spirit makes up for lack of vocal prowess:).
We liked these clips but we were uncertain how it would play at the memorial service. We wanted to the overall service to be a rather upbeat affair, as Shin had wanted, and we were worried the video would end the services on more of a down note than we intended. The photo slideshow was more upbeat as Shin is always smiling.
Luckily we have this blog, to bring the director's cut of the segments that did not make the final production.
Tony
There is a clip of Shin being silly and hamming it up for the camera as she danced in a friend's pair of $2,000 shoes. The second clip is from sometime in 2006 when she sang Louis Armstrong's, "What a Wonderfull World", when out to dinner with some friends (she readily admitted she was quite tone deaf, but her spirit makes up for lack of vocal prowess:).
We liked these clips but we were uncertain how it would play at the memorial service. We wanted to the overall service to be a rather upbeat affair, as Shin had wanted, and we were worried the video would end the services on more of a down note than we intended. The photo slideshow was more upbeat as Shin is always smiling.
Luckily we have this blog, to bring the director's cut of the segments that did not make the final production.
Tony
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Link to CNA article
Here is a link to the CNA story on the memorial service.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/406103/1/.html
Here is the CNA link on the story of her passing and her decision to leave her body to research. This article also includes a link to the tv news segment that was on the channel the night before.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/405425/1/.html
Tony
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/406103/1/.html
Here is the CNA link on the story of her passing and her decision to leave her body to research. This article also includes a link to the tv news segment that was on the channel the night before.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/405425/1/.html
Tony
Memorial Service Slideshow
Thank you to everyone who attended Shin's memorial services yesterday. I was very moved by the overwhelming warmth and support everyone offered.
We plan to put up highlights from the Memorial service over the next few days. To start with here is the slideshow that concluded the services:
Tony
We plan to put up highlights from the Memorial service over the next few days. To start with here is the slideshow that concluded the services:
Tony
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