Tuesday, May 12, 2009

May it be

I recall when I was young and in love or heartbroken, it was easy to find songs that were very meaningful to me. But then someone else would share a mixed tape of the songs that were so meaningful to them - but to me the songs were kind of bad and I think more was read into them then was really there. I realized that something that is very moving is probably just very personal.

So I am very hesitant to share a song that I've been listening a lot to for inspiration during quiet moments. I suspect what is touching to me, might just be a crappy song to someone else. But here it is anyway. Sometimes I imagine it is Shin on the journey to find her way. Other times I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders and I feel it is me.

I also suspect that the song reaches me a bit more than usual because of Gandalf. Gandalf may be my favorite fictional character. This song is played in the LOTR movie when Frodo loses Gandalf - (Gandalf holds back the Balrog but plunges to his doom in the Mines of Moria). Gandalf is such a wise paternal figure that his loss is a very moving part of the story.

And I've probably just proved my point that what is moving to me probably already sounds silly to others. Anyway here is the link:


May It Be by Enya

May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh, how far you are from home

Mornie utúlië (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantië (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now

May it be shadows call
Will fly away
May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun

Mornie utúlië (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantië (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now

A promise lives within you now

Shin with Toby

Thanks for the well wishes that continue to come in, both by mail and comments on this blog. I'm still adjusting, still busy and unfortunately haven't been able to fit in much blogging. Its been over three months now. I was just looking at this video clip of Shin laughing with Toby. The date of the video is Jan 11. Amazing that she passed away only 16 days later.

All is well. I have several stories about Toby and Josie that I would like to share and I do find that my feelings and the ways I miss Shin evolve over time. I'll try to gather my thoughts and share them soon.