Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Boneless Chicken

I have been quiet for a few days because I'm in the boneless chicken phase of my treatment, when the chemo is kicking in and the side effects result in my exerting most of my strength to hold my head up. I can completely empathize with newborn babies and their wobbly heads.

I had a few visitors today and was very pleased to be able to sit up and chat for a while. But I had to take a two-hour nap afterwards. Just like a newborn baby.

I'm just writing this to let you know that I am indeed getting your e-mails and am very eager to answer them but haven't the energy at the moment.

I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day and I can start doing simple things again.


Anonymous said...

Dear Shin,

Yup, miss you too. Rest well today and tomorrow be a better day and get to do some of your favourite things. Let me know if anything I can help. NCC will be shooting a program for breast cancer awareness on Apr 26 with me, and want you to know that you are my inspiration. Yvonne

amangler said...

Even boneless, you're amazing.


Judy said...

Shin, glad to see that you are up to writing your blog again. It was lovely to see Josie and Rosie having fun together yesterday. Wow, Toby has really grown. Thinking of you - Judy (Rosie's Grandma!)

Anonymous said...

Hi Shin,

Hope you can start to eat something and get more rest, don't exert yourself...

Love Mandy & Kim

Christine Raza said...

Hey chicky! (ha ha)
Great to hear from you. I'm sure you will be sprinting up stairs in no time. In the meantime, get some rest and enjoy time with Nana Carol.

Love and hugs from all,
Christine, Jamie, Zoe and Abby

Anonymous said...

I still read your blog and check on you every night. Just wanted to let you know that.

You do feature hugely in my life and hopefully some good will come of my increased awareness of breast cancer. You've inspired me to continue on and make a change. A client who is a survivor and I will hopefully start a breast cancer class at my studio in the near future. Its something I think is much needed and its a class I'm happy to teach for free with any nominal donations be given to breast cancer research. There isn't a day that goes by where a bit of you triggers a part of me that reminds me of some anecdote you wrote about in your blog. The omnipresent voice of "Shin".

Time for bed, catch you very soon, was wondering where in Singapore to find a handcrank wheatgrass juicer today and thought of you and how you hate that putrid green juice.

Skylar's mom

jin said...

Hey sis!

I went for my annual mammogram today, and of course I couldn't help but think of you as I sat waiting for almost two hours to get my boobs squished. ( I always liked the word "squished" - because it sounds like a cute onomatopoeia - until I had to have it done to my mosquito bites. Ouch! Forget water boarding - they should just give the terrorists mammograms to make them 'fess up!)

I think of you every day, but of course I thought of you the entire time I was waiting. I couldn't help but think that if it weren't for the fact that you're dying of cancer as we speak, my insurance company wouldn't be covering my mammogram.

And I thought, "Gee, having your sister dying of cancer is a pretty crappy price to pay to have your insurance company be willing to pay for your mammogram." It just doesn't seem right.

On a more positive note, I was also thinking about how grateful I am that I was able to see you do two steps at a time and enjoy one last yummy meal at the airport with you before I left Singapore.

Now, I see your latest blog entry and that you're struggling with the chemo side effects again. Although I'm an atheist as you know, I'll borrow something from religion and tell you, "this too shall pass." It did last time, so let's hope it passes quickly this time.

Just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you and loving you all the way from the other side of the earth! Please take good care of yourself and rest up so you can do two steps at a time again!


P.S. I never did like boneless chicken, dammit!

Alka said...

Shin, hi:

rest well, eat well and be strong. I read this blog everyday and miss you when there's no update. When there's none, I get worried about you. Don't exert yourself, though.
Stay well and strong. When can i see you?
luv, alka

Leighbee said...

Seems so many of us are "daily stalkers'!!!???!!!

I have just read Jin's comment and was reduced to tears - I would NEVER put Shin in the "lucky" bracket BUT at the SAME TIME, I have to comment that I wish I could be lucky enough to have a sister like her.............! Life is a funny thing - not something we ask for - not something we can really control - BUT along the way we are dealt good and bad cards......the bad cards sadly sometimes seems more LUMINOUS .......... I have to say though, that I am SO thankful to have had the absolute priveledge to have had the opportunity to get to know a little about what makes Shin and her "world" revolve. I hope that ALL of you who read this blog are HALF the person she and they are and if you are.........YOU GOT LUCKY! Even her FRIENDS are incredible - she must ooooooooooze something yummy and gooey!!??!!!

Anonymous said...

Dear Shin, It was wonderful meeting you last night at school. Your blog has inspired me in many ways and has helped me focus on whats really important in life and let go of petty hangups.

I forgot to thank you for helping spread the word about Maksim. You have really helped make a difference in his life and have helped give some peace to his mother.

I'm so glad our kids will be in school together and I will look out for Josie. Big hugs to you and your family, Natalia

Anonymous said...

bless you. stay strong and fight on.

Evelyn Teo said...

You are and always will be an inspiration to me. Was just sharing with a few friends last night about you and how much I am learning from you especially the love you have for Tony, Josie and Toby, and this love will stay forever. Love you Shin!